To these dark depths we are condemned

You know what causes it don’t you? What causes all this suffering.

It is happiness which does.

You understand, don’t you? One cannot know depression without having experienced joy. Every negative needs a positive or it cannot exist. Every end has its beginning, every death has its life. Only through experiencing the light can you know the dark.

When one lives their life alone, they do not know loneliness. They know only life. They do not wish for another, they do not wish to have someone to hold them, to care for them, to love them. But as soon as they meet that other, their life as it has been is over. They can never again know purity. They can never again know contentment. When they are inevitably left alone again they will crave for another, crave for someone, anyone who cares. They will cling to friends, latch onto romances and rot in their own disgusting fears of isolation.

Can you not see? Can you not understand? Without the positive there is no negative. Had you lived as I told you to you would be free. You would be pure. But now you wallow in your own pathetic misery. I cannot help you now. We are done. Until you come to me and accept me, do not bother begging for my help. You are wasted. You are pathetic. You are everything you once swore as vile. You are broken.

You have allowed yourself to die.

Leave me.

Sleep now in the fire

Continued from this post.

You run past a chapel, but you know that they offer no sanctuary in this place.

Ahead of you, the wide doors to your school are chained shut, but this does not stop you and you throw yourself through the glass. Picking yourself up you wince as you feel the glass cut into your flesh, but stopping means worse. And so you run. You run down the hall, heading for the rear exit. But it seems so far away…

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A Conversation

“You aren’t the most powerful individual, are you?”

You rise slowly from your sitting position, careful to avoid falling from the cliff edge to the rotting garden below. The Grinning Man clarifies himself.

“She moved on so quickly, and you are still stuck in denial. Hope is paralysing my friend.”

You finally find your tongue and snap back, “We are not friends.”

The Grinning Man simply laughs, his smile ever-present against his silhouette. There is no outline, no defined features. Just a black figure and a cracked, white smile.

“We will be. The sooner, the better.”

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A Dream…

You stand up. The sky is black, no stars will light your path tonight. The Moon is nowhere to be seen. But you know it is night time.

You take in your surroundings. You are standing in the car park of your old school, but there are no cars. You call out for anybody who could be there. There is no one. You search your pockets. There is only a blank white piece of paper. You think it is photograph paper, but you’re not sure. Your hand feels slightly numb.

Why don’t you have your phone? You always have your phone. Why don’t you have your phone?

With a sudden sense of loathing, you start up the hill, walking up the road to your school’s main building.

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